I have a lot of confusions when I received a small red box which has a shiny circular thing inside. Aside that I do not wear such on a daily basis, I have this thinking that this thing, even if small, when given to someone is associated with a serious expression of something depending on the meaning one puts in it.
Bewildered, I asked the person who gave me that thing and he directly answered. (knowing that he has a straightforward personality) From among the words I heard around and from that person’s premise, I can recall one significant word he said — Trust.
To many, ring could reveal romantic intention and intimate relationship that is given to someone that makes your heart flutter every second of everyday. Primarily between couple. Although this is entirely the common notion and holds true most the time, I do not belong to this category at this point in time. So in this case, I am more concern to what the message that person wants me to know for giving me such thing on his special day.
He simply said, “Trust”. What does he mean by that?
Giving this ring, for him, is not just commitment and devotion. This represents how sure he is with what he feels at the moment and he is bound to prove the sincerity of his intent to pursue. Beyond what his words can explain is a feeling he evaluated many times which according to his assessment is real.
“For once, just slowly learn to trust. Observe, feel and allow me to manifest honesty in my words through my efforts because I already decided.”
Trust. How do I start investing trust to someone I know for less than a year?
With my existence in this lifetime, I have tendency to be too trusting of others or not trusting enough. Either of the two, I learned from previous experiences that I should not compare one encounter from the other because it will be unfair to me and to the new people I will meet. Even if it is a form of risk, I try to steer clear of my doubts and uncertainties. It will be unreasonable to some people if I treat them unjustly only because I have experienced that people I began to trust before suddenly disappeared. Perhaps it’s a common feeling when someone from the past destroyed our trust that we began to build up walls around us and in the end we become cynical and over thinkers. It’s unavoidable, but instead of comparing one from the other why not we make it as our guide and a stepping stone to learn, stay aware, and see beyond the wall. I am sensitive when it comes to trusting, that it sometimes breaks me into tears of which I can’t control.
pssst. Now I am open to trusting another person
I learned exactly that I must not allow those betrayals of trust to ruin my chance to know someone deserving. Yes, trusting must be a very fragile thing — a glass that once broken will never be the same again, but I am trying everything not to let those permeate my decisions, instead move an inch forward and begin to trust.
To the ring that symbolizes trust, I am putting it on to imply that I am starting to build certainty in between the gap of two people who were just strangers months ago. That I am grateful to know someone who keeps going on in life. That I appreciate every single effort I see and feel.
They say that the more similar two people, the greater the trust between them. I guess this does not apply to us, because we are two parallel lines. But let us try to be on the same line soon. Running next to each other.
Rest assured, this token will be kept.